A story of unconditional love

This week we cover a very personal, yet omnipresent topic. Let's talk about love, the one thing which unites us all in its glory. Once we open up to it, it is abundant and formless, yet a very intimate experience.

I want to share my journey of self-discovery, pain, bravery and the inner drive to explore uncharted terrains. I want to share my profound experiences and insights gained throughout my lifetime(s), which have shaped my perception of this reality.

In my personal life, I've discovered many times what it means to be unconditionally loving,

I am very fortunate to be in the presence of wise teachers, who show me my true potential and help me see through the misty delusions we all have to deal with in our life within society. I express my gratitude to these beautiful gurus, my spirit guides and all who came before me, who cleared the path to my own and the collective evolution.

I believe that we all are born out of this infinite light, the essence of our universe which we can visualise as a tapestry of life, a thread that links everything that ever was, is and will be, beyond time and space. It connects your soul to your past lives back to the source, this infinite moment of existence, constantly changing. It is the dance, which creates all forms, what we perceive as our reality. We all can connect with it, when we open ourselves to our spiritual heart. With an open heart, we can see clearly what it is, that every human deeply desires. The feeling of being loved and sharing love. It is the longing from our soul, to return to its original state, this very essence that unites us all, unconditional love.

It means that you give with an open heart, without expecting anything in return. This pure, boundless life force vibrates in every cell of our body, in every plant or rock, in the water and the skies, in every particle that exists in this symphony of creation, the baseline of all existence and the mother of every feeling.

For instance, consider Unconditional Love as a radiant beam of pure light passing through a prism. This prism then refracts the light into all the colours we perceive. These colours are the different feelings or emotions in our personal reality.

Even when you are angry at someone or you feel depressed or upset and somehow negative, it may seem like there is no love involved, but what you truly feel is the absence of it, which then results in distortion and an overreaction to your internal state.

And, if your mind is not trained, you subconsciously react to these impulsive triggers, which then creates more friction and stress.

Meditation and connecting to Nature are the most important tools to help you to stay centred in your heart space, which educates your mind to not react to these internal triggers and be loving towards yourself and your surroundings.

My near-death experience

Now I want to tell you a very personal story about my near death experience, which was an eye opener and helped me to receive a preview of our original state of being. When I was 16 years old, on the birthday of my big brother, I got stabbed by a knife 3 times, which resulted in a big blood loss. While I was losing consciousness, my friends always tried to keep me awake. Yet I was drifting into this pure light, which felt like coming home. When I think about this experience, it was like the first eye contact that you share with your mother the moment you are born. It was purity, there was no other feeling or thought, it was like I was transcending into this ocean of love and I became one with this glorious presence. There was absolute certainty that this was the place from which I originated and where I would eventually return, transcending this existence.

It was the divine love of the mother of all, which is birthing existence from moment to moment. However, this experience was so profound that it was hard to comprehend as a 16 year old teenager, and now many years after this experience, its echoes still ripple through my mind.

I feel fortunate that I have encountered similar experiences in different circumstances throughout my life, which helped me to make more sense out if it. Once, after a few days of meditating in a silence retreat called Vipassana, I expanded out of my body into the divine light I had encountered that profound night at 16. it was like my soul became one with its presence, returning to its natural state, so simple, yet so hard to attain in our daily busy lives. I felt deep joy, compassion and inner peace. My heart was bursting with love. It was a blissful experience and I felt kissed by god. And it was simply through self-observation and the mind's ability to sink deeper and deeper into the subconscious.

When we quieten our mind, we perceive a different reality. Our senses become heightened, becoming more alert and observative.

Your physical sensations are a reflection of whatever you perceive in your daily life.

Before you react to your emotions, your body notices a change of it's natural state.

Your breath pattern changes, there is a subtle alteration of your physical sensations. If your mind is trained, you are able to notice these small changes and you can pull the brakes, before reacting to to your emotions. For your information, a lot of times I am not able to do this, but I know when I train my mind further, eventually, I become gradually better at it.

Another time I went to a Hypnotherapist. I felt a deep pain and disconnection in my heart and didn't know where this feeling came from or what to do about it. So in my despair, I seeked out help and luckily found this amazing soul, who guided me through this journey.

At the beginning of the session, he asked me to go into myself and localise this feeling. There was a tension in my heart area, like energy that wasn't able to flow freely, which I visualised as pulsating and warm golden light. He told me to allow this energy to pass through every part of my body, and out of my feet into mother earth. I remember how I drifted into this state of balance, love and peace with myself and the whole universe.

There were no worries, no sorrows, nothing but unconditional love and it felt so natural, like I've witnessed it so many times before.

For a week afterwards I was able to switch between the normal state of mind into this deep trance-like experience. During this time I went more into nature, to feel its grounding presence. Nature is like our mother, we come from it and eventually return home, once our time is gone. Eventually, once you deepen your roots, you will grow into a strong wise tree, where no winds can shake you and you will stand strong, no matter what.

These experiences have revealed that what we perceive as our reality, is merely a fragment of a larger picture. There is no separation between you and me, or between our surroundings. Everything is simply loving awareness, pure energy that shows itself in all its beautiful forms. But, through our conditioned mind we lose contact with our true nature, getting tangled into the perception of our Ego mind and feel separated from everything that is.

I know, that these experiences mirror my personal perception of reality, and the sum of the insights I've gained throughout my life(s). I don't say that this is an absolute truth, it is just my perspective of it, and I hope some of you can resonate with it.

Unconditional love in relationships

Throughout my life I had some very unhealthy relationships. I struggled with my mind a lot in my teenage years, I was a drug addict and was wandering in darkness. This darkness reflected itself in my environment and my connection to others.

During this period, in the majority of my relationships, I relied entirely on someone else's love. I was attached to my partners and didn't even notice how disastrous my unhealthy mind became, which resulted in constant mental and physical pain, I created Paranoia a strong Co Dependence. This started to shift after I started my solo travels and was alone for about 3 years and specifically in the 8 months, where I barely spoke to other people and connected to my feelings, to my pain and was listening to it.

It was like a mental rollercoaster, one moment I was happy, the other I felt sad and useless. But through being alone I allowed myself space to feel these emotions, listened to them and didn't push them away. I've started journaling and meditating and received deeper insights into my true nature. It took me a lot of inner work to change the negative habit patterns of my mind, to transform them into positive ones, which nourish my body, mind and soul on a daily basis.

As a result of this inner work, I started to love and accept myself for who I am and how I arrived at this place. I am telling you this story because of its importance to the relationship with yourself and others. When your mind is unhealthy, you will attract unhealthy people, and your relationship will be dependent, as your inner darkness will creep into them.

At this time, I've received a message from the universe, the beautiful connection I share with my amazing partner. Every day she teaches me and reminds me of how beautiful life is. When we meditate together, we do sports or in our conversations, we become stronger as a team. There is a subtle, yet big difference between this relationship and every relationship I've ever encountered before - we are both independent and do our inner work, our happiness doesn't depend on each other, yet we love to spend time together. When I gaze into her eyes in her soul, I feel her divine presence and unconditional love reflecting on me. She is a pure mirror and shows me life as it is. Her existence, teachings, guidance, and unwavering presence fill me with infinite gratitude, as does the boundless realm of unconditional love we create.

It is so important to meet someone on a level of self-love, where you are independent and stable within, having a mutual understanding of self-worth, compassion and loving-kindness towards your beautiful self. When you love yourself unconditionally, no matter what- you will attract someone with a similar vibration, who can receive this love and reflect it to you. Unconditional love doesn't mean that you need to accept everything, that the other person is doing, it's important to set and communicate boundaries and be open to change.

How to practice and integrate unconditional love

It is important to nourish the qualities, that define unconditional love for you.

Be open for communication, and do so with an open heart, don't expect anything in return.

It is to mention that unconditional love doesn’t mean you should accept truly hurtful and toxic behaviours. Embrace your true self and don't change, just because you want to impress others or want to be liked.

Give yourself unconditional love, be your best friend and biggest supporter, and practice positive inner talking. Apply gratitude and forgiveness, this will help you let go of negative emotions and resentment and focus on acting lovingly and kindly towards yourself and others. Be loving to the ones, who don't return your love, and understand that everyone has their personal story, which shaped their character, try to see life out of their perspective and have compassion for them. Realise that everyone can be your teacher, if you are willing to see what they are reflecting back at you.

Small changes make a big impact, I am sure that you can find small gestures, that help others on daily basis.

A wish for you

As we come to the end of this small excursion, I hope that some of you resonate with its deeper messages, that are beyond the words written in this article. Everything I've described here is a result of self-observation and personal experiences, which means it is open to all of you. Unconditional love is our birthright, it is your essence and I wish for you, to have the courage to look inside yourself, be brave and see pain as your wise teacher, listen to it, feel it and eventually you will understand different aspects of your amazing being. Look for the light inside yourself, radiate this light into your darkness - for a more beautiful life.

All the best my friend

Love& Gratitude